Night Views

Recently, I stepped out of Perth, went to Hong Kong, so my "must-do-list" for 2009 has 1 less thing to achieve! Of course, can't miss the night view in HK if you are travelling there....
compare to the night view we have been seeing in Perth aka Kings Park aka Mill Point... I finally realized, the night view in Perth is just way too.... ehe....

Picture always speaks the word! :)

Hong Kong v.s


Perth v.s

Tokyo's :)

Which one do you prefer?

Count down to Hong Kong!

Must buy in Hong Kong:

1) 1x Leather jacket (can be worn in spring - autumn, not so thick... just nice )
2) 2 bags... budget $400 and below each...
3) another bag for mama, and mei mei
4) cosmetics ... Shu uemera Eye curler
5) wallet (saw 1 Gucci one, it's $500 AUD)
6) heaps of the hongkong gossip magazine... (eg. Apple magazine) LOL

so.. I think need to save at least $2000.00 for my this trip ba!:)

Should I change the money now??? hhahaha....

p/s: Visa still havent done yet ! *ooposss...!! *

Happy ? or not?

Don't know whether I made the right decision or not...

Everyone just told me, that's my choice, and that's the path I chose after all happened... As long as I am happy, that's fine... ; As long as he doesn't bully me again... that's good... ; As long as you two knows what are going on between... then .. we are ok ...

What I want to say is... As long as I have your blessings, I am happy...

He: "zo zo, you happy??"
She: "yeah... I am happy...how about you?"

And at the moment, we are taking this slow... step by step... and I am happy =)

Newly purchase

Hmm... was quite excited and happy this morning, but sometimes happiness will just go with the wind... it comes by fast, goes fast too! :(

Went to few banks to do some stuff, when I walked past CUE (one of my fav stores), I saw this dress...somehow got attracted by it, and check out the price... $149, surprisingly it's cheap (why I will say cheap? if you guys know the price range for CUE stuff, you will say..yeah $149 for their dress is definetely cheap!!! C.H.E.A.P !! ^_^ ) I always like to buy their stuff as the quality of clothes is good, but it's always the price who pushes me away =( but...it's been a long time since I got attracted by the clothes from CUE, so... without any doubts, I went to try it on! and it fits just nice. The staff even borrowed me their GENUINE leather belt (which costs $135) to match with the dress too! yes! u didn't see it wrongly, is $135! ALMOST THE SAME PRICE with the dress lah! *faint* but I have to admit, the belt is really nice...I have to struggle not to buy it ...hehe... so ended by I just bought the dress.... *shy*

Here is my newly purchase..!! Should have taken the pic when I tried it on, but my mobile was running out of batt! sigh!! but it looks nicer with the belt on.... and fish-net hosiery (wiuwit!)


Now I have to get myself a very nice "leatherly" look belt to match with this dress! =)

Happy for you, my girl

Congratulations to you Elilia!! Next September, you will be MRS. already... hehehe...
really can't wait to hear from you about the "surprised" proposal =)

Really happy for you.... ^_^ ....

So I should start re-plan my holiday next year already eh? hehee....

Better Man

"You deserve a better guy"....

I heard about this repeatedly since 9 months ago... but haven't got a chance to really talk about this... so ... how should we define this "better" guy?

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Not to talk about me first, let's talk about some common or jealousy things that we can always see everyday on the street....

When you shopping in the mall, or walking/ strolling on the street, you will see this very pretty girl, holding a guy who is maybe half an inch shorter than her, if not will be a guy with half bald, or big beer tummy which maybe bigger than those pregnant woman ... or even like a much older man... you will think, "oh my god! i think she deserves a better guy!" but have u ever thought of approaching her and ask her why want to choose to be with that guy who she is holding her hand tightly to?

Or sometimes, you will curse the ugly girl who stands next to the so-called-prince-charming in your high school, wonder how come he will be so good to her, what is so good about her that can make him treat her whole heartedly.. then you will start spreading the rumours.. "hmm..i think he deserved a better girl; he can get a much better girl, much prettier one." etc.
Yet, have you ever asked him as well.. ? No, we did not...

To them, the one standing next to them, the one whom they hold their hands to, are their "better" one. Everyone has different judgement. To you, you will think that, yeah, according to her/his appearance, his/her occupation/income etc, he/she surely can get someone better or even at least, match his/her qualification. They might have been searching their-so-called "better one" since ages ago, yet, they couldnt find it. Or maybe they have met someone like that... 4 or 5Cs (credit card, car, condo, career, cash) , and good looking, etc. whatever good points you can think of, they will have them.

But, just how come it's not "click".... You don't feel butterfly in the stomach when you chat with them, your heart still beat as normal when he accidentally touch your hand. Your face won't blush if they look at you deeply into your eyes. Even though, he/she is the "best of the best" you have met since the heart broken one....

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For the past 9 months, yes, the better guy did appear. He's rich, he is not bad looking, he is homely (even more homely than me!), he has good career, and has a house in Australia. But i don't get palpitation when I talked to him, I don't blush, I won't feel nervous ............ even though, he is really better than him...

But how many of you know exactly what happened between each couple?

Someone told me, he has been living with the life that people "wish" him to live so. and he is now... living with this life, following people's wish. happy or not, only he himself know. He can't have any wishful thinking, because he can't. and he is not allowed. As, i believe, deeply inside his heart, the regrets grow tiny little bit, without his realisation.

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I also wish to live on the life that my parents want me to live. For example... marry a rich husband, then I don't have to work, everyday high tea, shopping, sometimes work part time. or taking care the kids at home. But... how many percent of chance you will meet the person can give you all this? maybe the 1 can afford to give you married or attached .. or even they can afford to give you, is he/she the one you really want to be with?

x x x x x x x x x

So, no one can say "you deserve a better guy" ... because you will never know or understand what is happening deep down their world =)



p/s: so i also have to stop saying or comment on others , "hmm..she deserves a better guy"

You said...

When you said,
You don't watch H.O.U.S.E or C.S.I without me...
You said you stopped watching those 2 DVDs...
You said that C.S.I. DVD set I bought for you, is the best present I ever gave you...
They wet my eyes....

And you said those just after I finished writing my blog...
Is that a dream?
Is that sweet talks?

I don't know....

Yet, I desperately need those.....
For my lonely heart
=(

Regret? or not?

Another few more days, I am going to step up the stage again... sing that song... don't know why, I truly influenced by the chorus bit...

都怪我，太不争气。。。 我恨我爱你。。只是因为你是你。。

Maybe just simply because after 8 months since then, even though how hard I tried to change my lifestyle, how much I wished to meet someone else... or even though I did, I still can't get your name out of my life...

You taught me through alot... those small little bits that just exist in our life...
Yeah, I don't watch "supernatural", "house", "Iron chef", "CSI", "NCIS" now...
I don't eat KFC, I onli eat Chooks...
I don't drive past Vahland Avenue anymore...
I don't go Southlands,
I don't watch DVD on tv,
I continue back on my hongkong/taiwan series on my labtop again (by myself)
I don't cook tomyum myself now... coz I will never able to make the tomyum as yummy as you did...
Whatever I did .... Just because, I want to get you over...

Yet,
I don't park my car next to 4WD or any car bigger than mine (coz you told me not to as they can scratch your car)
I don't lock my car when I drive on freeway (as you said when *touchwood* meets accident, and the car locked, it can be dangerous... )
I watch series before I go to sleep...I can't sleep without any voices... as I so used to fall asleep with your arms around, and with your dvd movie still playing... now without your arms, I guess .. "sound" is the only thing I can fall asleep with...
etc etc etc....
Now I wait for your miss call... but you don't call anymore...I guess, my that NO to the question of "do you want to have anything to do with me?" did hurt you alot...

Now when I see everyone has finally found their loves, and I am still by myself after this 8 months... this loneliness strike me...makes me thinking of you throughout this countless night...

Speechless.....

I have to bear with this decision I made one and a half months ago...

When you drove your car away from my apartment, I know...
that's over...

I will become a student soon!!

Hmm... human beings are just so complicated... when you are studying, you wish you were working, coz when you are working, you get the money to buy the things you want..all the branded goodies, all the nice places you want to travel to... and don't need to keep asking for money from your parents; Yet, when you start working, you miss those uni days, those days when you joked around with your friend, lunch with mates in uni, study in library, nap in library, the so called "study group" at friends house (which always turned out to be "chatting aka gossipping" session..) or those days when you went back to m'sia for holiday for 3 months during your summer holiday..had nothing to worry about except for the exams that piled up during the 2 exam weeks...

So after 3 years of working full time (first yr is pre-reg, so i still did the study bit for the first yr), yeah... i seriously missed the days when i was a student, so... through the recommendation of my lil pharmacy assistant, Joy, I signed up this aromatherapy short course at Endeavour college. So after that, if I really like this course, then I will sign up the part time diploma course for it ^_^ (check it out http://www.endeavour.edu.au )

It's a 2 day short course on a Sat and Sunday, so .. I have to get someone else to work my sunday shift (but it should be no prob).. honestly, Aromatherapy is something I always want to know more about. Don't know why, I started to have more and more interest on vitamins or natural medicines side... but not too deep as homeo.. haha.. as I think I can never remember those #%$^%$ name =P

I told Joy the other day, I had this dream, or should I say ambition? I want to own a cafe, which sells different kinds of herbal tea, and essential oil, the cafe will have a different theme, atmosphere each day, where I will put different essential oil in the shop everyday. It's a place where you can relax after work, chill with your friends for our tea or coffee.. and when you need any medical advice, I..as a pharmacist, will be able to help you.... how does it sound? =)

I think....

You have really moved on to your new life, and forget about me......

I should be happy, as this is what I want in the end...

But how come,

I am not .........

最近在煲着很多套戏， 有几句经典名言。。。。

其中一句

男人说谎， 和女人说谎，最大的差别。。
男人说谎，很多时候都是为了要让自己好过，可是女人说谎，是为了要让对方好过。。。我们选择欺骗，是因为不想伤害自己最心爱的人， 我们不是故意的， 只是没有伤害对方的勇气， 所以才隐藏真正的答案。。。

六月的天空

梁静茹的勇气，耳熟能详，
曾经都是你我的K 歌精选。。
里头，有这么一段。。。
“爱真的需要勇气，
来面对流言蜚语。。。
只要你一个眼神肯定，
我的爱就有意义。。。”

看着你那伤心，生气的眼神
我只能说声对不起。。。
对， 我没有勇气。。。
没有勇气去面对那些一直关心我的朋友，家人。。。
那些，陪我走过那段日子的他们。。。
尤其是经历了种种。。。
这段不被接受和祝福的恋情。。。
我没有勇气再踏进去。。。

一个人的生活，
我适应得很好。。。。
谢谢你这两年的照顾。。。

终于。。。
在这六月的晚上，
经过了七个月的暧昧。。。
要和你说。。。。
再见 保重

那天 看到你有点累得样子。。
有点心疼。。。

不是以前女友的身份。。
而纯粹 只是朋友，尴尬的身份。。。

那
落在我唇边的吻 。。。
没有了对你那股爱你的冲动。。。
没有了还对你的思念。。。
只有。。。
心疼你那 藏在心底最深处的孤单。。

那些存放在盒子的回忆，
那些你我这两年重重的回忆。。。
我还保留着很好。。。
没有了恨 。。。
没有了怨。。。
真的。。。。。。。

真的希望，
有那么一天，
我们还能够， 肩并肩的。。。
看着你我都喜欢的那些电影。。。

Perth City View

Have you ever driven past Mill Point Road (in Perth) at around 6:30pm during winter time? I drove past this road every night at around 8:30 after work, but it never appeals to me so much this evening...

When I drove past there today, the view appears in front of me is a very nice Perth City view, with all the lights in the building lightened up ( i guess all the cleaners are working at that time ) and the weather is nice, not too dark... that's really nice! I almost wanted to stop at road side and take pictures .... too bad i cant! =(

Never mind, there's always a chance!:)

p/s: bought my ever first white dress today =)

Rotto Day Trip

Very tired day, but then I'm very happy...

See the sun, the sea and the beach! :)

Swan Valley Day Trip

Altho it's BLACK FRIDAY, I had a great day with my loved ones... =) safely, nicely, happily......

Had a very late and nice lunch at Black Swan, Swan Valley, the waitress happened to be a malaysian too, from Malacca, very friendly, she realized we spoke mandarin among each other then suddenly she spoke mandarin to us as well... so then realized she's also malaysian! hehe... and i think because of her, the head chef from Black Swan even gave us complimentary asparagus!! my fav vege...hehe... and very talkative... may consider goin back there again! :)

Picture says everything, so here you go! ^_^

幸福 感谢

好久都没有这么开心了。。。

终于。。。
我可以尽情地。。
随着音乐， 踏着那许久都不曾踏过的地板。。
摆动着身子。。跳着舞。。。

我，
觉得现在的自己
好幸福。。。
因为
我有你们。。陪着我。。
走过那段日子。。。

My after picture of removing my precious wisdom tooth!

Not that swollen right??? =)

Remember last time I mentioned that I might be anaemic...? yeah, I went for blood test and the results came back, answer = NO... all my bloods are ok... just my cholesterol level is a bit... hmm ... naughty! keke...

Actually it's below the dangerous level, but the doctor said if i didn't cut down my fat intake, by the time I am 50 yo, definetely I will have high cholesterol... so...now I try to limit myself to have only once a week Chooks when I am working... haha..!!

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I had my wisdom tooth removed on Tuesday, 24 feb 2009! It's not that bad as what I expected and was told... and I am the lucky one, only had one... so... the whole procedure done on the chair, yet, the facilities are very good, my blood pressure, heart rate are monitored all the times, and I have oxygen and nitrogen mask on all the times too.. have fentanyl and midazolam infusion plus local anaesthetic, and I was asleep throughout the whole procedure, but then, I can still hear a bit of the surrounding sound... and it only lasted for less than 1 hour including the recovery time.. Jason was with me for the recovery... and I was still a bit dizzy that time, but after that was ok... keke... and I even went for harvey norman to get my camera back! *of coz, I was not the 1 who drove!!* the nurses and doctor are good too, they called me twice after the surgery to follow up, so professional! =) I would reckon my friends to go to this surgeon.. Dr. J Herbert! :)

Oh yeah! for the swelling wise, hmm... out of 10, maybe I will say 4 or 5?? not really bad, just the first day, felt kinda weird as the local anaesthetic hasnt gone away, so I can feel the numbness on my left cheek and chin... as a good patient, I rinsed my mouth with warm salt water, brufen three times a day to reduce swelling and antibiotic three times daily dosing. My pain threshold is quite high, so if u want me to rank the pain level I experienced, out of 10, i would say, less than 4.... I had porridge, the next day I can start chewing slowly... and the 4th day, normal intake! keke...

Those cute little ones around me

Am I lucky or not?

I am not married, I haven't got any kids, but there are quite a few kids around me, whom I can play around with..and enjoy their innocence...

** Viv **

** Menzie **

** Allysha **

Aren't they just cute and adorable?? =)

V Day

Exactly 2 months from the day I become single, is Valentine's Day... I don't feel anything or sad, is still better than after broke up with my ex, 2 weeks later from then was my birthday... so that feeling i was having at that moment, you can imagine... how bad it is...
so compared to that, today, V Day, it was just nothing..

Although we were together for 2 years, surprisingly, we never celebrate V day together... so coincidence, those 2 years on V day, I was at JB celebrating CNY, and didnt make on the day.. and you said to me when we started going out, you said to me you don't usually celebrate V Day, so.. I just had to accept it... so, i didn't receive a whole big bunch of flowers, roses from you, yet, a small V day present will still come from you... =)

That's why, even today, I am just by myself, I am feeling okay.. okay by myself, relaxing at home, watching series, reading novel.. as last year and the year before, the same day...
I was by myself too .............

Anyway, to every single people, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! ^_^

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1. My family nick name is "xiao zhen", it's been called since I was young by all my family members and I love it.

2. I like buying bags and watches and shoes. If i can afford in future, I want to have a wardrobe just to put all these stuffs. :)

3. I came to Perth in 2002 and it's the 8th year since I am away from home, I miss home alot at the moment!

4. I don't like dipping food in any sauce when I am eating. I like to taste the food in the original way.

5. My legs and eyes are the proudest part of my body. And I love wearing short skirt and dresses but I have scar on my leg now =(

6. I have hairy arm and leg, my ex used to say I am the "hair-iest" girl he been going out with.

7. If you want to buy me a soft drink, please get me root beer, that's the only soft drink I fancy. I can drink coke but just because of there's no other choice.

8. I love the cookies & cream ice cream from Gelare (in wafer cone)

9. I am pretty good at numbers, can easily remember people's mobile number or car plate's.

10. I am bad at drawing, no talent at all.

11. Even though I am a pharmacist, I forget to take my multivitamin sometimes.

12. I am thinking to take up a part time course in TAFE in Perth, and it's Jewellery Studies.

13. I used to be able to sleep in until 11 or 12 am but now my body clock not allow me to do so.

14. I used to have bad acne, then I take Roaccutane and it ROCKS! :)

15. I miss my grandmother alot and until now my eyes wet when I think of her.

16. I used to club almost every weekend when I was in first and second year of uni but I haven't been clubbed for more than 1 year now.

17. I love travelling and travelling alone backpacking will be a must in 2 years time.

18. I believe in "Once a cheater forever a cheater".

19. I am Hainamese but I don't know how to speak the language at all, yet I can speak cantonese, understand a lil bit of hakka as in dialect language.

20. I don't like to watch sci-fi movies but enjoy the asian & particular USA series.

21. I am not a technology person. My old samsung mobile ever lasted for more than 4 years.

22. I am a straightforward person, if I do offend you please let me know.

23. I went out with a non-asian guy before for 2 years 1 month.

24. I love to look into a guy's eyes, that's how I am attracted.

25. And, last, I am a white gold person :)

當你決定　你要離開我　
我沒有說什麼　就當作你自由
有好幾次 我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用　就當作是寂寞

只有我能明白　她的溫柔　對你是種解脫
只想要告訴我　誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛她　對我的懲罰　
說你沒有想他她　是可憐我吧
我已沒有藉口　只能放手　不能奢求　你說愛我
我已不想多說　摀住耳朵　
不想再次聽到你說　你很愛她

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this song, writes what's happening now...

=)

vacancy

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• VACANCY ---> Boyfriend
• DUTY ---> Take good care of me, sayang me, let me bully ....
  
• QUALIFICATION ---> Stable career, cash, car, decent looking ...
  

anyone interested, please let me a message...


hahahahah...

Anaemic ? or not ?

Recently feel so tired, even though I have my 8 hours beauty sleep ... I still feel tired mentally, physically....

Dozing off when I drive to work, ended up had the accident...
Having nap during my lunch break (in the pharmacy) .. it's not I wan to sleep, I just fell asleep when I read magazine or story book!! =( *I know ..it's scary!!!*

Even though how tired I am during the day, when it's time to sleep at night, it takes me a while to fall asleep..!! sigh...

So, tomorrow I am going for blood test, hopefully I am not anaemic! :( I don't want to take iron tablets...!!

v.o.o.d.o.o.

还有三天
就是画上句号的一个月。。。

有人问我。。。
最想念的会是什么。。。
我回答， cuddling = 躺在你胸膛的感觉。。

我怀念的。。
。。。 吃完晚饭躺在你身边休息。。。
。。。 躺在你胸膛， 看着dvd 。。。
。。。 看着看着， 就睡着了。。。

我说过，
你的床好像有voodoo 。。。
每次看dvd。。 看不到半个小时，我最睡着了。。。
你却说。。。 是我贪睡。。。

而我现在，
最需要的是，
那个 "voodoo"。。。
那个可以让我一下下就睡着，一觉到天亮的voodoo 。。。

Perth v.s Japan Fairy Wheels

The other day saw this picture from the website, Perth Wheels... I tot it's the fairy wheels from the circus, after that just knew it from my friend, it's something like "Perth Eyes"... Drove past last night to see that, all the memories recalled back...

This "Perth Eye".. looks so small compared to the one we rode in Japan Odaiba... you still remember??


But anyway, it's all gone by the wind now.... wonders whether the next time when we both ride the fairy wheels, who will be the one sitting next to us???

Perth Eye v.s Odaiba Fairy Wheels...

It's over.... ???

I read this article from Cosmo...

"When someone breaks up with you, you need to accept that it's not because there is something wrong with you, but that you're just not what they want at this stage of life. Seen this way, no danger is done and you can move on and find a better fit."

"Dating is about looking at someone and seeing something you like about them, then going out and getting to know them. This process used to take weeks, months or even years, but today it may take only one or two nights. It's far better to wait and take things one step at a time."

Signs that you're clinging

• you struggle not to call or email him and keep checking your messages.
• you constantly talk about him.
• you keep wondering what he's doing and who he's with.
• you find yourself doing drive-bys of his home or work.
• you find yourself running into him at his favourite bar.
• you cry frequently, or feel consumed by anger or lethargy.
• you drink, eat, sleep, take drugs or spend too much - signs you're struggling to forget him instead of forging past him.
  

from the above points, i think only 3.5 applies to me... so still not too bad =)

p/s: I'm still improving...

My another hobbies

I like to see my friends' picture on friendster, and now facebook...
When I online and I have nothing to surf, that's where I normally go to ...
Go to my friend's profile and browse their picture, see how they are doing, how's their life and how they have changed...
Changed from the short hair high school girl to the pretty, lady like, charming sexy woman....
or from those army hairstyle or what we so called "durian head"...to muscular, tanned, tall, mature, knowledgable, successful man...
I feel that's really amazing how the network can be.... connect everyone from all over the world...

I don't talk much on msn even though I have it online together with my labtop on... really, cause that's all I did...browsed through friendster, facebook and of cause, watching my fav series at the sam time

But, he doesnt think so...
He thinks I talk to guys, flirt with guys on msn all the time when I am at home...
He thinks I need to catch up with my lovers in m'sia or Perth or some other no where countries... that's why I don't stay at his place everyday... coz' I just told him, I need some space for myself ... and until to such an extent, I didn't realize he didn't even ask me to come over to his house anymore.... I was the one now offers to come to his place... and I just realized (or I should say, only he told me) when the relationship ended...

Now, I can just freely browse through facebook, friendster....